negative Picture of myself? for whom? you? wow… now i’m caring a lot
well… you sounded like a douche for starts… and “you know” there are
console players but stated that peole “could just use console commands”…
which is stupid if you had console players in mind… so you’re the one
making a negative Picture and getting all offended because someone doesn’t
agree with you… which brings the freedom of speech thing… you defend
it… but you’re also aggressive towards it hipocrisy much?
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I scowl with frustration at myself in the mirror. Damn my hair – it just
won’t behave, and damn Katherine Kavanagh for being ill and subjecting me
to this ordeal. I should be studying for my final exams, which are next
week, yet here I am trying to brush my hair into submission. I must not
sleep with it wet. I must not sleep with it wet. Reciting this mantra
several times, I attempt, once more, to bring it under control with the
brush. I roll my eyes in exasperation and gaze at the pale, brown-haired
girl with blue eyes too big for her face staring back at me, and give up.
My only option is to restrain my wayward hair in a ponytail and hope that I
look semi presentable.
Kate is my roommate, and she has chosen today of all days to succumb to the
flu. Therefore, she cannot attend the interview she’d arranged to do, with
some mega-industrialist tycoon I’ve never heard of, for the student
newspaper. So I have been volunteered. I have final exams to cram for, one
essay to finish, and I’m supposed to be working this afternoon, but no –
today I have to drive a hundred and sixty-five miles to downtown Seattle in
order to meet the enigmatic CEO of Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc. As an
exceptional entrepreneur and major benefactor of our University, his time
is extraordinarily precious – much more precious than mine – but he has
granted Kate an interview. A real coup, she tells me. Damn her
extra-curricular activities.
Kate is huddled on the couch in the living room.
“Ana, I’m sorry. It took me nine months to get this interview. It will take
another six to reschedule, and we’ll both have graduated by then. As the
editor, I can’t blow this off. Please,” Kate begs me in her rasping, sore
throat voice. How does she do it? Even ill she looks gamine and gorgeous,
strawberry blonde hair in place and green eyes bright, although now
red-rimmed and runny. I ignore my pang of unwelcome sympathy.
“Of course I’ll go Kate. You should get back to bed. Would you like some
Nyquil or Tylenol?”
“Nyquil, please. Here are the questions and my mini-disc recorder. Just
press record here. Make notes, I’ll transcribe it all.”
“I know nothing about him,” I murmur, trying and failing to suppress my
rising panic.
“The questions will see you through. Go. It’s a long drive. I don’t want
you to be late.”
“Okay, I’m going. Get back to bed. I made you some soup to heat up later.”
I stare at her fondly. Only for you, Kate, would I do this.
“I will. Good luck. And thanks Ana – as usual, you’re my lifesaver.”
Gathering my satchel, I smile wryly at her, then head out the door to the
car. I cannot believe I have let Kate talk me into this. But then Kate can
talk anyone into anything. She’ll make an exceptional journalist. She’s
articulate, strong, persuasive, argumentative, beautiful – and she’s my
dearest, dearest friend.
The roads are clear as I set off from Vancouver, WA toward Portland and the
I-5. It’s early, and I don’t have to be in Seattle until two this
afternoon. Fortunately, Kate’s lent me her sporty Mercedes CLK. I’m not
sure Wanda, my old VW Beetle, would make the journey in time. Oh, the Merc
is a fun drive, and the miles slip away as I floor the pedal to the metal.
My destination is the headquarters of Mr. Grey’s global enterprise. It’s a
huge twenty-story office building, all curved glass and steel, an
architect’s utilitarian fantasy, with Grey House written discreetly in
steel over the glass front doors. It’s a quarter to two when I arrive,
greatly relieved that I’m not late as I walk into the enormous – and
frankly intimidating – glass, steel, and whitesandstone lobby.
Behind the solid sandstone desk, a very attractive, groomed, blonde young
woman smiles pleasantly at me. She’s wearing the sharpest charcoal suit
jacket and white shirt I have ever seen. She looks immaculate.
“I’m here to see Mr. Grey. Anastasia Steele for Katherine Kavanagh.”
“Excuse me one moment, Miss Steele.” She arches her eyebrow slightly as I
stand self-consciously before her. I am beginning to wish I’d borrowed one
of Kate’s formal blazers rather than wear my navy blue jacket. I have made
an effort and worn my one and only skirt, my sensible brown knee-length
boots and a blue sweater. For me, this is smart. I tuck one of the escaped
tendrils of my hair behind my ear as I pretend she doesn’t intimidate me.
“Miss Kavanagh is expected. Please sign in here, Miss Steele. You’ll want
the last elevator on the right, press for the twentieth floor.” She smiles
kindly at me, amused no doubt, as I sign in.
She hands me a security pass that has VISITOR very firmly stamped on the
front. I can’t help my smirk. Surely it’s obvious that I’m just visiting. I
don’t fit in here at all. Nothing changes, I inwardly sigh. Thanking her, I
walk over to the bank of elevators past
the two security men who are both far more smartly dressed than I am in
their well-cut black suits.
The elevator whisks me with terminal velocity to the twentieth floor. The
doors slide open, and I’m in another large lobby – again all glass, steel,
and white sandstone. I’m confronted by another desk of sandstone and
another young blonde woman dressed impeccably in black and white who rises
to greet me.
“Miss Steele, could you wait here, please?” She points to a seated area of
white leather chairs.
Behind the leather chairs is a spacious glass-walled meeting room with an
equally spacious dark wood table and at least twenty matching chairs around
it. Beyond that, there is a floor-to-ceiling window with a view of the
Seattle skyline that looks out through the city toward the Sound. It’s a
stunning vista, and I’m momentarily paralyzed by the view. Wow.
I sit down, fish the questions from my satchel, and go through them,
inwardly cursing Kate for not providing me with a brief biography. I know
nothing about this man I’m about to interview. He could be ninety or he
could be thirty. The uncertainty is galling, and my nerves resurface,
making me fidget. I’ve never been comfortable with one-on-one interviews,
preferring the anonymity of a group discussion where I can sit
inconspicuously at the back of the room. To be honest, I prefer my own
company, reading a classic British novel, curled up in a chair in the
campus library. Not sitting twitching nervously in a colossal glass and
stone edifice.
I roll my eyes at myself. Get a grip, Steele. Judging from the building,
which is too clinical and modern, I guess Grey is in his forties: fit,
tanned, and fair-haired to match the rest of the personnel.
Another elegant, flawlessly dressed blonde comes out of a large door to the
right. What is it with all the immaculate blondes? It’s like Stepford here.
Taking a deep breath, I stand up.
“Miss Steele?” the latest blonde asks.
“Yes,” I croak, and clear my throat. “Yes.” There, that sounded more
confident.
“Mr. Grey will see you in a moment. May I take your jacket?”
“Oh please.” I struggle out of the jacket.
“Have you been offered any refreshment?”
“Um – no.” Oh dear, is Blonde Number One in trouble?
Blonde Number Two frowns and eyes the young woman at the desk.
“Would you like tea, coffee, water?” she asks, turning her attention back
to me.
“A glass of water. Thank you,” I murmur.
“Olivia, please fetch Miss Steele a glass of water.” Her voice is stern.
Olivia scoots up immediately and scurries to a door on the other side of
the foyer.
“My apologies, Miss Steele, Olivia is our new intern. Please be seated. Mr.
Grey will be another five minutes.”
Olivia returns with a glass of iced water.
“Here you go, Miss Steele.”
“Thank you.”
Blonde Number Two marches over to the large desk, her heels clicking and
echoing on the sandstone floor. She sits down, and they both continue their
work.
Perhaps Mr. Grey insists on all his employees being blonde. I’m wondering
idly if that’s legal, when the office door opens and a tall, elegantly
dressed, attractive African-American man with short dreads exits. I have
definitely worn the wrong clothes.
He turns and says through the door. “Golf, this week, Grey.”
I don’t hear the reply. He turns, sees me, and smiles, his dark eyes
crinkling at the corners. Olivia has jumped up and called the elevator. She
seems to excel at jumping from her seat. She’s more nervous than me!
“Good afternoon ladies,” he says as he departs through the sliding door.
“Mr. Grey will see you now, Miss Steele. Do go through,” Blonde Number Two
says. I stand rather shakily trying to suppress my nerves. Gathering up my
satchel, I abandon my glass of water and make my way to the partially open
door.
“You don’t need to knock – just go in.” She smiles kindly.
I push open the door and stumble through, tripping over my own feet, and
falling head first into the office.
Double crap – me and my two left feet! I am on my hands and knees in the
doorway to Mr. Grey’s office, and gentle hands are around me helping me to
stand. I am so embarrassed, damn my clumsiness. I have to steel myself to
glance up. Holy cow – he’s so young.
“Miss Kavanagh.” He extends a long-fingered hand to me once I’m upright.
“I’m Christian Grey. Are you all right? Would you like to sit?”
So young – and attractive, very attractive. He’s tall, dressed in a fine
gray suit, white shirt, and black tie with unruly dark copper colored hair
and intense, bright gray eyes that regard me shrewdly. It takes a moment
for me to find my voice.
“Um. Actually–” I mutter. If this guy is over thirty then I’m a monkey’s
uncle. In a daze, I place my hand in his and we shake. As our fingers
touch, I feel an odd exhilarating shiver run through me. I withdraw my hand
hastily, embarrassed. Must be static. I blink rapidly, my eyelids matching
my heart rate.
“Miss Kavanagh is indisposed, so she sent me. I hope you don’t mind, Mr.
Grey.”
“And you are?” His voice is warm, possibly amused, but it’s difficult to
tell from his impassive expression. He looks mildly interested, but above
all, polite.
“Anastasia Steele. I’m studying English Literature with Kate, um…
Katherine… um… Miss Kavanagh at Washington State.”
“I see,” he says simply. I think I see the ghost of a smile in his
expression, but I’m not sure.
“Would you like to sit?” He waves me toward a white leather buttoned
L-shaped couch.
His office is way too big for just one man. In front of the
floor-to-ceiling windows, there’s a huge modern dark-wood desk that six
people could comfortably eat around. It matches the coffee table by the
couch. Everything else is white – ceiling, floors, and walls except, on the
wall by the door, where a mosaic of small paintings hang, thirty-six of
them arranged in a square. They are exquisite – a series of mundane,
forgotten objects painted in such precise detail they look like
photographs. Displayed together, they are breathtaking.
“A local artist. Trouton,” says Grey when he catches my gaze.
“They’re lovely. Raising the ordinary to extraordinary,” I murmur,
distracted both by him and the paintings. He cocks his head to one side and
regards me intently.
“I couldn’t agree more, Miss Steele,” he replies, his voice soft and for
some inexplicable reason I find myself blushing.
Apart from the paintings, the rest of the office is cold, clean, and
clinical. I wonder if it reflects the personality of the Adonis who sinks
gracefully into one of the white leather chairs opposite me. I shake my
head, disturbed at the direction of my thoughts, and retrieve Kate’s
questions from my satchel. Next, I set up the mini-disc recorder and am all
fingers and thumbs, dropping it twice on the coffee table in front of me.
Mr. Grey says nothing, waiting patiently – I hope – as I become
increasingly embarrassed and flustered. When I pluck up the courage to look
at him, he’s watching me, one hand relaxed in his lap and the other cupping
his chin and trailing his long index finger across his lips. I think he’s
trying to suppress a smile.
“Sorry,” I stutter. “I’m not used to this.”
“Take all the time you need, Miss Steele,” he says.
“Do you mind if I record your answers?”
“After you’ve taken so much trouble to set up the recorder – you ask me
now?”
I flush. He’s teasing me? I hope. I blink at him, unsure what to say, and I
think he takes pity on me because he relents. “No, I don’t mind.”
“Did Kate, I mean, Miss Kavanagh, explain what the interview was for?”
“Yes. To appear in the graduation issue of the student newspaper as I shall
be conferring the degrees at this year’s graduation ceremony.”
Oh! This is news to me, and I’m temporarily pre-occupied by the thought
that someone not much older than me – okay, maybe six years or so, and
okay, mega successful, but still – is going to present me with my degree. I
frown, dragging my wayward attention back to the task at hand.
“Good,” I swallow nervously. “I have some questions, Mr. Grey.” I smooth a
stray lock of hair behind my ear.
“I thought you might,” he says, deadpan. He’s laughing at me. My cheeks
heat at the realization, and I sit up and square my shoulders in an attempt
to look taller and more intimidating. Pressing the start button on the
recorder, I try to look professional.
“You’re very young to have amassed such an empire. To what do you owe your
success?” I glance up at him. His smile is rueful, but he looks vaguely
disappointed.
“Business is all about people, Miss Steele, and I’m very good at judging
people. I know how they tick, what makes them flourish, what doesn’t, what
inspires them, and how to incentivize them. I employ an exceptional team,
and I reward them well.” He pauses and fixes me with his gray stare. “My
belief is to achieve success in any scheme one has to make oneself master
of that scheme, know it inside and out, know every detail. I work hard,
very hard to do that. I make decisions based on logic and facts. I have a
natural gut instinct that can spot and nurture a good solid idea and good
people. The bottom line is, it’s always down to good people.”
“Maybe you’re just lucky.” This isn’t on Kate’s list – but he’s so
arrogant. His eyes flare momentarily in surprise.
“I don’t subscribe to luck or chance, Miss Steele. The harder I work the
more luck I seem to have. It really is all about having the right people on
your team and directing their
energies accordingly. I think it was Harvey Firestone who said ‘the growth
and development of people is the highest calling of leadership.’”
“You sound like a control freak.” The words are out of my mouth before I
can stop them.
“Oh, I exercise control in all things, Miss Steele,” he says without a
trace of humor in his smile. I look at him, and he holds my gaze steadily,
impassive. My heartbeat quickens, and my face flushes again.
Why does he have such an unnerving effect on me? His overwhelming
good-looks maybe? The way his eyes blaze at me? The way he strokes his
index finger against his lower lip? I wish he’d stop doing that.
“Besides, immense power is acquired by assuring yourself in your secret
reveries that you were born to control things,” he continues, his voice
soft.
“Do you feel that you have immense power?” Control Freak.
“I employ over forty thousand people, Miss Steele. That gives me a certain
sense of responsibility – power, if you will. If I were to decide I was no
longer interested in the telecommunications business and sell up, twenty
thousand people would struggle to make their mortgage payments after a
month or so.”
My mouth drops open. I am staggered by his lack of humility.
“Don’t you have a board to answer to?” I ask, disgusted.
“I own my company. I don’t have to answer to a board.” He raises an eyebrow
at me. I flush. Of course, I would know this if I had done some research.
But holy crap, he’s so arrogant. I change tack.
“And do you have any interests outside your work?”
“I have varied interests, Miss Steele.” A ghost of a smile touches his
lips. “Very varied.” And for some reason, I’m confounded and heated by his
steady gaze. His eyes are alight with some wicked thought.
“But if you work so hard, what do you do to chill out?”
“Chill out?” He smiles, revealing perfect white teeth. I stop breathing. He
really is beautiful. No one should be this good-looking.
“Well, to ‘chill out’ as you put it – I sail, I fly, I indulge in various
physical pursuits.” He shifts in his chair. “I’m a very wealthy man, Miss
Steele, and I have expensive and absorbing hobbies.”
I glance quickly at Kate’s questions, wanting to get off this subject.
“You invest in manufacturing. Why, specifically?” I ask. Why does he make
me so uncomfortable?
“I like to build things. I like to know how things work: what makes things
tick, how to construct and deconstruct. And I have a love of ships. What
can I say?”
“That sounds like your heart talking rather than logic and facts.”
His mouth quirks up, and he stares appraisingly at me.
“Possibly. Though there are people who’d say I don’t have a heart.”
“Why would they say that?”
“Because they know me well.” His lip curls in a wry smile.
“Would your friends say you’re easy to get to know?” And I regret the
question as soon as I say it. It’s not on Kate’s list.
“I’m a very private person, Miss Steele. I go a long way to protect my
privacy. I don’t often give interviews,” he trails off.
“Why did you agree to do this one?”
“Because I’m a benefactor of the University, and for all intents and
purposes, I couldn’t get Miss Kavanagh off my back. She badgered and
badgered my PR people, and I admire that kind of tenacity.”
I know how tenacious Kate can be. That’s why I’m sitting here squirming
uncomfortably under his penetrating gaze, when I should be studying for my
exams.
“You also invest in farming technologies. Why are you interested in this
area?”
“We can’t eat money, Miss Steele, and there are too many people on this
planet who don’t have enough to eat.”
“That sounds very philanthropic. Is it something you feel passionately
about? Feeding the world’s poor?”
He shrugs, very non-committal.
“It’s shrewd business,” he murmurs, though I think he’s being disingenuous.
It doesn’t make sense – feeding the world’s poor? I can’t see the financial
benefits of this, only the virtue of the ideal. I glance at the next
question, confused by his attitude.
“Do you have a philosophy? If so, what is it?”
“I don’t have a philosophy as such. Maybe a guiding principle – Carnegie’s:
‘A man who acquires the ability to take full possession of his own mind may
take possession of anything else to which he is justly entitled.’ I’m very
singular, driven. I like control – of myself and those around me.”
“So you want to possess things?” You are a control freak.
“I want to deserve to possess them, but yes, bottom line, I do.”
“You sound like the ultimate consumer.”
“I am.” He smiles, but the smile doesn’t touch his eyes. Again this is at
odds with someone who wants to feed the world, so I can’t help thinking
that we’re talking about something else, but I’m absolutely mystified as to
what it is. I swallow hard. The temperature in the room is rising or maybe
it’s just me. I just want this interview to be over. Surely Kate has enough
material now? I glance at the next question.
“You were adopted. How far do you think that’s shaped the way you are?” Oh,
this is personal. I stare at him, hoping he’s not offended. His brow
furrows.
“I have no way of knowing.”
My interest is piqued.
“How old were you when you were adopted?”
“That’s a matter of public record, Miss Steele.” His tone is stern. I
flush, again. Crap. Yes of course – if I’d known I was doing this
interview, I would have done some research. I move on quickly.
“You’ve had to sacrifice a family life for your work.”
“That’s not a question.” He’s terse.
“Sorry.” I squirm, and he’s made me feel like an errant child. I try again.
“Have you had to sacrifice a family life for your work?”
“I have a family. I have a brother and a sister and two loving parents. I’m
not interested in extending my family beyond that.”
“Are you gay, Mr. Grey?”
He inhales sharply, and I cringe, mortified. Crap. Why didn’t I employ some
kind of filter before I read this straight out? How can I tell him I’m just
reading the questions? Damn Kate and her curiosity!
“No Anastasia, I’m not.” He raises his eyebrows, a cool gleam in his eyes.
He does not look pleased.
“I apologize. It’s um… written here.” It’s the first time he’s said my
name. My heartbeat has accelerated, and my cheeks are heating up again.
Nervously, I tuck my loosened hair behind my ear.
He cocks his head to one side.
“These aren’t your own questions?”
The blood drains from my head. Oh no.
“Err… no. Kate – Miss Kavanagh – she compiled the questions.”
“Are you colleagues on the student paper?” Oh crap. I have nothing to do
with the student paper. It’s her extra-curricular activity, not mine. My
face is aflame.
“No. She’s my roommate.”
He rubs his chin in quiet deliberation, his gray eyes appraising me.
“Did you volunteer to do this interview?” he asks, his voice deadly quiet.
Hang on, who’s supposed to be interviewing whom? His eyes burn into me, and
I’m compelled to answer with the truth.
“I was drafted. She’s not well.” My voice is weak and apologetic.
“That explains a great deal.”
There’s a knock at the door, and Blonde Number Two enters.
“Mr. Grey, forgive me for interrupting, but your next meeting is in two
minutes.”
“We’re not finished here, Andrea. Please cancel my next meeting.”
Andrea hesitates, gaping at him. She’s appears lost. He turns his head
slowly to face her and raises his eyebrows. She flushes bright pink. Oh
good. It’s not just me.
“Very well, Mr. Grey,” she mutters, then exits. He frowns, and turns his
attention back to me.
“Where were we, Miss Steele?”
Oh, we’re back to ‘Miss Steele’ now.
“Please don’t let me keep you from anything.”
“I want to know about you. I think that’s only fair.” His gray eyes are
alight with curiosity. Double crap. Where’s he going with this? He places
his elbows on the arms of the chair and steeples his fingers in front of
his mouth. His mouth is very… distracting. I swallow.
“There’s not much to know,” I say, flushing again.
“What are your plans after you graduate?”
I shrug, thrown by his interest. Come to Seattle with Kate, find a place,
find a job. I haven’t really thought beyond my finals.
“I haven’t made any plans, Mr. Grey. I just need to get through my final
exams.” Which I should be studying for now rather than sitting in your
palatial, swanky, sterile office, feeling uncomfortable under your
penetrating gaze.
“We run an excellent internship program here,” he says quietly. I raise my
eyebrows in surprise. Is he offering me a job?
“Oh. I’ll bear that in mind,” I murmur, completely confounded. “Though I’m
not sure I’d fit in here.” Oh no. I’m musing out loud again.
“Why do you say that?” He cocks his head to one side, intrigued, a hint of
a smile playing on his lips.
“It’s obvious, isn’t it?” I’m uncoordinated, scruffy, and I’m not blonde.
“Not to me,” he murmurs. His gaze is intense, all humor gone, and strange
muscles deep in my belly clench suddenly. I tear my eyes away from his
scrutiny and stare blindly down at my knotted fingers. What’s going on? I
have to go – now. I lean forward to retrieve the recorder.
“Would you like me to show you around?” he asks.
“I’m sure you’re far too busy, Mr. Grey, and I do have a long drive.”
“You’re driving back to WSU in Vancouver?” He sounds surprised, anxious
even. He glances out of the window. It’s begun to rain. “Well, you’d better
drive carefully.” His tone is stern, authoritative. Why should he care?
“Did you get everything you need?” he adds.
“Yes sir,” I reply, packing the recorder into my satchel. His eyes narrow,
speculatively.
“Thank you for the interview, Mr. Grey.”
“The pleasure’s been all mine,” he says, polite as ever.
As I rise, he stands and holds out his hand.
“Until we meet again, Miss Steele.” And it sounds like a challenge, or a
threat, I’m not sure which. I frown. When will we ever meet again? I shake
his hand once more, astounded that that odd current between us is still
there. It must be my nerves.
“Mr. Grey.” I nod at him. Moving with lithe athletic grace to the door, he
opens it wide.
“Just ensuring you make it through the door, Miss Steele.” He gives me a
small smile. Obviously, he’s referring to my earlier less-than-elegant
entry into his office. I flush.
“That’s very considerate, Mr. Grey,” I snap, and his smile widens. I’m glad
you find me entertaining, I glower inwardly, walking into the foyer. I’m
surprised when he follows me out. Andrea and Olivia both look up, equally
surprised.
“Did you have a coat?” Grey asks.
“Yes.” Olivia leaps up and retrieves my jacket, which Grey takes from her
before she can hand it to me. He holds it up and, feeling ridiculously
self-conscious, I shrug it on. Grey places his hands for a moment on my
shoulders. I gasp at the contact. If he notices my reaction, he gives
nothing away. His long index finger presses the button summoning the
elevator, and we stand waiting – awkwardly on my part, coolly
self-possessed on his. The doors open, and I hurry in desperate to escape.
I really need to get out of here. When I turn to look at him, he’s leaning
against the doorway beside the elevator with one hand on the wall. He
really is very, very good-looking. It’s distracting. His burning gray eyes
gaze at me.
“Anastasia,” he says as a farewell.
“Christian,” I reply. And mercifully, the doors close.
If you’re gonna use level up hack, BREAK IT UP, 5 levels here, (break), 5
levels there (break) so you don’t burn out. same with any long task, like
homework or writing papers or studying. ;D
There’s this lady up in the mountains South of Falkreath, Angi, who nets
you 6 levels of Archery when you complete her challenges. Note that it’s
best to have a Longbow and the Quick Draw perk, because her later
challenges require you to make quick shots.
Ignore multimeowify, he’s a troll. Don’t feed him.
Nope
do you lvl the skill faster if its set on legendary, or does it matter?
The grey beards have to be praying in order for them not to attack you
negative Picture of myself? for whom? you? wow… now i’m caring a lot
well… you sounded like a douche for starts… and “you know” there are
console players but stated that peole “could just use console commands”…
which is stupid if you had console players in mind… so you’re the one
making a negative Picture and getting all offended because someone doesn’t
agree with you… which brings the freedom of speech thing… you defend
it… but you’re also aggressive towards it hipocrisy much?
After awhile the elf in riverwood will stop training you I got mad so I
took him out and shot him in the neck
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I scowl with frustration at myself in the mirror. Damn my hair – it just
won’t behave, and damn Katherine Kavanagh for being ill and subjecting me
to this ordeal. I should be studying for my final exams, which are next
week, yet here I am trying to brush my hair into submission. I must not
sleep with it wet. I must not sleep with it wet. Reciting this mantra
several times, I attempt, once more, to bring it under control with the
brush. I roll my eyes in exasperation and gaze at the pale, brown-haired
girl with blue eyes too big for her face staring back at me, and give up.
My only option is to restrain my wayward hair in a ponytail and hope that I
look semi presentable.
Kate is my roommate, and she has chosen today of all days to succumb to the
flu. Therefore, she cannot attend the interview she’d arranged to do, with
some mega-industrialist tycoon I’ve never heard of, for the student
newspaper. So I have been volunteered. I have final exams to cram for, one
essay to finish, and I’m supposed to be working this afternoon, but no –
today I have to drive a hundred and sixty-five miles to downtown Seattle in
order to meet the enigmatic CEO of Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc. As an
exceptional entrepreneur and major benefactor of our University, his time
is extraordinarily precious – much more precious than mine – but he has
granted Kate an interview. A real coup, she tells me. Damn her
extra-curricular activities.
Kate is huddled on the couch in the living room.
“Ana, I’m sorry. It took me nine months to get this interview. It will take
another six to reschedule, and we’ll both have graduated by then. As the
editor, I can’t blow this off. Please,” Kate begs me in her rasping, sore
throat voice. How does she do it? Even ill she looks gamine and gorgeous,
strawberry blonde hair in place and green eyes bright, although now
red-rimmed and runny. I ignore my pang of unwelcome sympathy.
“Of course I’ll go Kate. You should get back to bed. Would you like some
Nyquil or Tylenol?”
“Nyquil, please. Here are the questions and my mini-disc recorder. Just
press record here. Make notes, I’ll transcribe it all.”
“I know nothing about him,” I murmur, trying and failing to suppress my
rising panic.
“The questions will see you through. Go. It’s a long drive. I don’t want
you to be late.”
“Okay, I’m going. Get back to bed. I made you some soup to heat up later.”
I stare at her fondly. Only for you, Kate, would I do this.
“I will. Good luck. And thanks Ana – as usual, you’re my lifesaver.”
Gathering my satchel, I smile wryly at her, then head out the door to the
car. I cannot believe I have let Kate talk me into this. But then Kate can
talk anyone into anything. She’ll make an exceptional journalist. She’s
articulate, strong, persuasive, argumentative, beautiful – and she’s my
dearest, dearest friend.
The roads are clear as I set off from Vancouver, WA toward Portland and the
I-5. It’s early, and I don’t have to be in Seattle until two this
afternoon. Fortunately, Kate’s lent me her sporty Mercedes CLK. I’m not
sure Wanda, my old VW Beetle, would make the journey in time. Oh, the Merc
is a fun drive, and the miles slip away as I floor the pedal to the metal.
My destination is the headquarters of Mr. Grey’s global enterprise. It’s a
huge twenty-story office building, all curved glass and steel, an
architect’s utilitarian fantasy, with Grey House written discreetly in
steel over the glass front doors. It’s a quarter to two when I arrive,
greatly relieved that I’m not late as I walk into the enormous – and
frankly intimidating – glass, steel, and whitesandstone lobby.
Behind the solid sandstone desk, a very attractive, groomed, blonde young
woman smiles pleasantly at me. She’s wearing the sharpest charcoal suit
jacket and white shirt I have ever seen. She looks immaculate.
“I’m here to see Mr. Grey. Anastasia Steele for Katherine Kavanagh.”
“Excuse me one moment, Miss Steele.” She arches her eyebrow slightly as I
stand self-consciously before her. I am beginning to wish I’d borrowed one
of Kate’s formal blazers rather than wear my navy blue jacket. I have made
an effort and worn my one and only skirt, my sensible brown knee-length
boots and a blue sweater. For me, this is smart. I tuck one of the escaped
tendrils of my hair behind my ear as I pretend she doesn’t intimidate me.
“Miss Kavanagh is expected. Please sign in here, Miss Steele. You’ll want
the last elevator on the right, press for the twentieth floor.” She smiles
kindly at me, amused no doubt, as I sign in.
She hands me a security pass that has VISITOR very firmly stamped on the
front. I can’t help my smirk. Surely it’s obvious that I’m just visiting. I
don’t fit in here at all. Nothing changes, I inwardly sigh. Thanking her, I
walk over to the bank of elevators past
the two security men who are both far more smartly dressed than I am in
their well-cut black suits.
The elevator whisks me with terminal velocity to the twentieth floor. The
doors slide open, and I’m in another large lobby – again all glass, steel,
and white sandstone. I’m confronted by another desk of sandstone and
another young blonde woman dressed impeccably in black and white who rises
to greet me.
“Miss Steele, could you wait here, please?” She points to a seated area of
white leather chairs.
Behind the leather chairs is a spacious glass-walled meeting room with an
equally spacious dark wood table and at least twenty matching chairs around
it. Beyond that, there is a floor-to-ceiling window with a view of the
Seattle skyline that looks out through the city toward the Sound. It’s a
stunning vista, and I’m momentarily paralyzed by the view. Wow.
I sit down, fish the questions from my satchel, and go through them,
inwardly cursing Kate for not providing me with a brief biography. I know
nothing about this man I’m about to interview. He could be ninety or he
could be thirty. The uncertainty is galling, and my nerves resurface,
making me fidget. I’ve never been comfortable with one-on-one interviews,
preferring the anonymity of a group discussion where I can sit
inconspicuously at the back of the room. To be honest, I prefer my own
company, reading a classic British novel, curled up in a chair in the
campus library. Not sitting twitching nervously in a colossal glass and
stone edifice.
I roll my eyes at myself. Get a grip, Steele. Judging from the building,
which is too clinical and modern, I guess Grey is in his forties: fit,
tanned, and fair-haired to match the rest of the personnel.
Another elegant, flawlessly dressed blonde comes out of a large door to the
right. What is it with all the immaculate blondes? It’s like Stepford here.
Taking a deep breath, I stand up.
“Miss Steele?” the latest blonde asks.
“Yes,” I croak, and clear my throat. “Yes.” There, that sounded more
confident.
“Mr. Grey will see you in a moment. May I take your jacket?”
“Oh please.” I struggle out of the jacket.
“Have you been offered any refreshment?”
“Um – no.” Oh dear, is Blonde Number One in trouble?
Blonde Number Two frowns and eyes the young woman at the desk.
“Would you like tea, coffee, water?” she asks, turning her attention back
to me.
“A glass of water. Thank you,” I murmur.
“Olivia, please fetch Miss Steele a glass of water.” Her voice is stern.
Olivia scoots up immediately and scurries to a door on the other side of
the foyer.
“My apologies, Miss Steele, Olivia is our new intern. Please be seated. Mr.
Grey will be another five minutes.”
Olivia returns with a glass of iced water.
“Here you go, Miss Steele.”
“Thank you.”
Blonde Number Two marches over to the large desk, her heels clicking and
echoing on the sandstone floor. She sits down, and they both continue their
work.
Perhaps Mr. Grey insists on all his employees being blonde. I’m wondering
idly if that’s legal, when the office door opens and a tall, elegantly
dressed, attractive African-American man with short dreads exits. I have
definitely worn the wrong clothes.
He turns and says through the door. “Golf, this week, Grey.”
I don’t hear the reply. He turns, sees me, and smiles, his dark eyes
crinkling at the corners. Olivia has jumped up and called the elevator. She
seems to excel at jumping from her seat. She’s more nervous than me!
“Good afternoon ladies,” he says as he departs through the sliding door.
“Mr. Grey will see you now, Miss Steele. Do go through,” Blonde Number Two
says. I stand rather shakily trying to suppress my nerves. Gathering up my
satchel, I abandon my glass of water and make my way to the partially open
door.
“You don’t need to knock – just go in.” She smiles kindly.
I push open the door and stumble through, tripping over my own feet, and
falling head first into the office.
Double crap – me and my two left feet! I am on my hands and knees in the
doorway to Mr. Grey’s office, and gentle hands are around me helping me to
stand. I am so embarrassed, damn my clumsiness. I have to steel myself to
glance up. Holy cow – he’s so young.
“Miss Kavanagh.” He extends a long-fingered hand to me once I’m upright.
“I’m Christian Grey. Are you all right? Would you like to sit?”
So young – and attractive, very attractive. He’s tall, dressed in a fine
gray suit, white shirt, and black tie with unruly dark copper colored hair
and intense, bright gray eyes that regard me shrewdly. It takes a moment
for me to find my voice.
“Um. Actually–” I mutter. If this guy is over thirty then I’m a monkey’s
uncle. In a daze, I place my hand in his and we shake. As our fingers
touch, I feel an odd exhilarating shiver run through me. I withdraw my hand
hastily, embarrassed. Must be static. I blink rapidly, my eyelids matching
my heart rate.
“Miss Kavanagh is indisposed, so she sent me. I hope you don’t mind, Mr.
Grey.”
“And you are?” His voice is warm, possibly amused, but it’s difficult to
tell from his impassive expression. He looks mildly interested, but above
all, polite.
“Anastasia Steele. I’m studying English Literature with Kate, um…
Katherine… um… Miss Kavanagh at Washington State.”
“I see,” he says simply. I think I see the ghost of a smile in his
expression, but I’m not sure.
“Would you like to sit?” He waves me toward a white leather buttoned
L-shaped couch.
His office is way too big for just one man. In front of the
floor-to-ceiling windows, there’s a huge modern dark-wood desk that six
people could comfortably eat around. It matches the coffee table by the
couch. Everything else is white – ceiling, floors, and walls except, on the
wall by the door, where a mosaic of small paintings hang, thirty-six of
them arranged in a square. They are exquisite – a series of mundane,
forgotten objects painted in such precise detail they look like
photographs. Displayed together, they are breathtaking.
“A local artist. Trouton,” says Grey when he catches my gaze.
“They’re lovely. Raising the ordinary to extraordinary,” I murmur,
distracted both by him and the paintings. He cocks his head to one side and
regards me intently.
“I couldn’t agree more, Miss Steele,” he replies, his voice soft and for
some inexplicable reason I find myself blushing.
Apart from the paintings, the rest of the office is cold, clean, and
clinical. I wonder if it reflects the personality of the Adonis who sinks
gracefully into one of the white leather chairs opposite me. I shake my
head, disturbed at the direction of my thoughts, and retrieve Kate’s
questions from my satchel. Next, I set up the mini-disc recorder and am all
fingers and thumbs, dropping it twice on the coffee table in front of me.
Mr. Grey says nothing, waiting patiently – I hope – as I become
increasingly embarrassed and flustered. When I pluck up the courage to look
at him, he’s watching me, one hand relaxed in his lap and the other cupping
his chin and trailing his long index finger across his lips. I think he’s
trying to suppress a smile.
“Sorry,” I stutter. “I’m not used to this.”
“Take all the time you need, Miss Steele,” he says.
“Do you mind if I record your answers?”
“After you’ve taken so much trouble to set up the recorder – you ask me
now?”
I flush. He’s teasing me? I hope. I blink at him, unsure what to say, and I
think he takes pity on me because he relents. “No, I don’t mind.”
“Did Kate, I mean, Miss Kavanagh, explain what the interview was for?”
“Yes. To appear in the graduation issue of the student newspaper as I shall
be conferring the degrees at this year’s graduation ceremony.”
Oh! This is news to me, and I’m temporarily pre-occupied by the thought
that someone not much older than me – okay, maybe six years or so, and
okay, mega successful, but still – is going to present me with my degree. I
frown, dragging my wayward attention back to the task at hand.
“Good,” I swallow nervously. “I have some questions, Mr. Grey.” I smooth a
stray lock of hair behind my ear.
“I thought you might,” he says, deadpan. He’s laughing at me. My cheeks
heat at the realization, and I sit up and square my shoulders in an attempt
to look taller and more intimidating. Pressing the start button on the
recorder, I try to look professional.
“You’re very young to have amassed such an empire. To what do you owe your
success?” I glance up at him. His smile is rueful, but he looks vaguely
disappointed.
“Business is all about people, Miss Steele, and I’m very good at judging
people. I know how they tick, what makes them flourish, what doesn’t, what
inspires them, and how to incentivize them. I employ an exceptional team,
and I reward them well.” He pauses and fixes me with his gray stare. “My
belief is to achieve success in any scheme one has to make oneself master
of that scheme, know it inside and out, know every detail. I work hard,
very hard to do that. I make decisions based on logic and facts. I have a
natural gut instinct that can spot and nurture a good solid idea and good
people. The bottom line is, it’s always down to good people.”
“Maybe you’re just lucky.” This isn’t on Kate’s list – but he’s so
arrogant. His eyes flare momentarily in surprise.
“I don’t subscribe to luck or chance, Miss Steele. The harder I work the
more luck I seem to have. It really is all about having the right people on
your team and directing their
energies accordingly. I think it was Harvey Firestone who said ‘the growth
and development of people is the highest calling of leadership.’”
“You sound like a control freak.” The words are out of my mouth before I
can stop them.
“Oh, I exercise control in all things, Miss Steele,” he says without a
trace of humor in his smile. I look at him, and he holds my gaze steadily,
impassive. My heartbeat quickens, and my face flushes again.
Why does he have such an unnerving effect on me? His overwhelming
good-looks maybe? The way his eyes blaze at me? The way he strokes his
index finger against his lower lip? I wish he’d stop doing that.
“Besides, immense power is acquired by assuring yourself in your secret
reveries that you were born to control things,” he continues, his voice
soft.
“Do you feel that you have immense power?” Control Freak.
“I employ over forty thousand people, Miss Steele. That gives me a certain
sense of responsibility – power, if you will. If I were to decide I was no
longer interested in the telecommunications business and sell up, twenty
thousand people would struggle to make their mortgage payments after a
month or so.”
My mouth drops open. I am staggered by his lack of humility.
“Don’t you have a board to answer to?” I ask, disgusted.
“I own my company. I don’t have to answer to a board.” He raises an eyebrow
at me. I flush. Of course, I would know this if I had done some research.
But holy crap, he’s so arrogant. I change tack.
“And do you have any interests outside your work?”
“I have varied interests, Miss Steele.” A ghost of a smile touches his
lips. “Very varied.” And for some reason, I’m confounded and heated by his
steady gaze. His eyes are alight with some wicked thought.
“But if you work so hard, what do you do to chill out?”
“Chill out?” He smiles, revealing perfect white teeth. I stop breathing. He
really is beautiful. No one should be this good-looking.
“Well, to ‘chill out’ as you put it – I sail, I fly, I indulge in various
physical pursuits.” He shifts in his chair. “I’m a very wealthy man, Miss
Steele, and I have expensive and absorbing hobbies.”
I glance quickly at Kate’s questions, wanting to get off this subject.
“You invest in manufacturing. Why, specifically?” I ask. Why does he make
me so uncomfortable?
“I like to build things. I like to know how things work: what makes things
tick, how to construct and deconstruct. And I have a love of ships. What
can I say?”
“That sounds like your heart talking rather than logic and facts.”
His mouth quirks up, and he stares appraisingly at me.
“Possibly. Though there are people who’d say I don’t have a heart.”
“Why would they say that?”
“Because they know me well.” His lip curls in a wry smile.
“Would your friends say you’re easy to get to know?” And I regret the
question as soon as I say it. It’s not on Kate’s list.
“I’m a very private person, Miss Steele. I go a long way to protect my
privacy. I don’t often give interviews,” he trails off.
“Why did you agree to do this one?”
“Because I’m a benefactor of the University, and for all intents and
purposes, I couldn’t get Miss Kavanagh off my back. She badgered and
badgered my PR people, and I admire that kind of tenacity.”
I know how tenacious Kate can be. That’s why I’m sitting here squirming
uncomfortably under his penetrating gaze, when I should be studying for my
exams.
“You also invest in farming technologies. Why are you interested in this
area?”
“We can’t eat money, Miss Steele, and there are too many people on this
planet who don’t have enough to eat.”
“That sounds very philanthropic. Is it something you feel passionately
about? Feeding the world’s poor?”
He shrugs, very non-committal.
“It’s shrewd business,” he murmurs, though I think he’s being disingenuous.
It doesn’t make sense – feeding the world’s poor? I can’t see the financial
benefits of this, only the virtue of the ideal. I glance at the next
question, confused by his attitude.
“Do you have a philosophy? If so, what is it?”
“I don’t have a philosophy as such. Maybe a guiding principle – Carnegie’s:
‘A man who acquires the ability to take full possession of his own mind may
take possession of anything else to which he is justly entitled.’ I’m very
singular, driven. I like control – of myself and those around me.”
“So you want to possess things?” You are a control freak.
“I want to deserve to possess them, but yes, bottom line, I do.”
“You sound like the ultimate consumer.”
“I am.” He smiles, but the smile doesn’t touch his eyes. Again this is at
odds with someone who wants to feed the world, so I can’t help thinking
that we’re talking about something else, but I’m absolutely mystified as to
what it is. I swallow hard. The temperature in the room is rising or maybe
it’s just me. I just want this interview to be over. Surely Kate has enough
material now? I glance at the next question.
“You were adopted. How far do you think that’s shaped the way you are?” Oh,
this is personal. I stare at him, hoping he’s not offended. His brow
furrows.
“I have no way of knowing.”
My interest is piqued.
“How old were you when you were adopted?”
“That’s a matter of public record, Miss Steele.” His tone is stern. I
flush, again. Crap. Yes of course – if I’d known I was doing this
interview, I would have done some research. I move on quickly.
“You’ve had to sacrifice a family life for your work.”
“That’s not a question.” He’s terse.
“Sorry.” I squirm, and he’s made me feel like an errant child. I try again.
“Have you had to sacrifice a family life for your work?”
“I have a family. I have a brother and a sister and two loving parents. I’m
not interested in extending my family beyond that.”
“Are you gay, Mr. Grey?”
He inhales sharply, and I cringe, mortified. Crap. Why didn’t I employ some
kind of filter before I read this straight out? How can I tell him I’m just
reading the questions? Damn Kate and her curiosity!
“No Anastasia, I’m not.” He raises his eyebrows, a cool gleam in his eyes.
He does not look pleased.
“I apologize. It’s um… written here.” It’s the first time he’s said my
name. My heartbeat has accelerated, and my cheeks are heating up again.
Nervously, I tuck my loosened hair behind my ear.
He cocks his head to one side.
“These aren’t your own questions?”
The blood drains from my head. Oh no.
“Err… no. Kate – Miss Kavanagh – she compiled the questions.”
“Are you colleagues on the student paper?” Oh crap. I have nothing to do
with the student paper. It’s her extra-curricular activity, not mine. My
face is aflame.
“No. She’s my roommate.”
He rubs his chin in quiet deliberation, his gray eyes appraising me.
“Did you volunteer to do this interview?” he asks, his voice deadly quiet.
Hang on, who’s supposed to be interviewing whom? His eyes burn into me, and
I’m compelled to answer with the truth.
“I was drafted. She’s not well.” My voice is weak and apologetic.
“That explains a great deal.”
There’s a knock at the door, and Blonde Number Two enters.
“Mr. Grey, forgive me for interrupting, but your next meeting is in two
minutes.”
“We’re not finished here, Andrea. Please cancel my next meeting.”
Andrea hesitates, gaping at him. She’s appears lost. He turns his head
slowly to face her and raises his eyebrows. She flushes bright pink. Oh
good. It’s not just me.
“Very well, Mr. Grey,” she mutters, then exits. He frowns, and turns his
attention back to me.
“Where were we, Miss Steele?”
Oh, we’re back to ‘Miss Steele’ now.
“Please don’t let me keep you from anything.”
“I want to know about you. I think that’s only fair.” His gray eyes are
alight with curiosity. Double crap. Where’s he going with this? He places
his elbows on the arms of the chair and steeples his fingers in front of
his mouth. His mouth is very… distracting. I swallow.
“There’s not much to know,” I say, flushing again.
“What are your plans after you graduate?”
I shrug, thrown by his interest. Come to Seattle with Kate, find a place,
find a job. I haven’t really thought beyond my finals.
“I haven’t made any plans, Mr. Grey. I just need to get through my final
exams.” Which I should be studying for now rather than sitting in your
palatial, swanky, sterile office, feeling uncomfortable under your
penetrating gaze.
“We run an excellent internship program here,” he says quietly. I raise my
eyebrows in surprise. Is he offering me a job?
“Oh. I’ll bear that in mind,” I murmur, completely confounded. “Though I’m
not sure I’d fit in here.” Oh no. I’m musing out loud again.
“Why do you say that?” He cocks his head to one side, intrigued, a hint of
a smile playing on his lips.
“It’s obvious, isn’t it?” I’m uncoordinated, scruffy, and I’m not blonde.
“Not to me,” he murmurs. His gaze is intense, all humor gone, and strange
muscles deep in my belly clench suddenly. I tear my eyes away from his
scrutiny and stare blindly down at my knotted fingers. What’s going on? I
have to go – now. I lean forward to retrieve the recorder.
“Would you like me to show you around?” he asks.
“I’m sure you’re far too busy, Mr. Grey, and I do have a long drive.”
“You’re driving back to WSU in Vancouver?” He sounds surprised, anxious
even. He glances out of the window. It’s begun to rain. “Well, you’d better
drive carefully.” His tone is stern, authoritative. Why should he care?
“Did you get everything you need?” he adds.
“Yes sir,” I reply, packing the recorder into my satchel. His eyes narrow,
speculatively.
“Thank you for the interview, Mr. Grey.”
“The pleasure’s been all mine,” he says, polite as ever.
As I rise, he stands and holds out his hand.
“Until we meet again, Miss Steele.” And it sounds like a challenge, or a
threat, I’m not sure which. I frown. When will we ever meet again? I shake
his hand once more, astounded that that odd current between us is still
there. It must be my nerves.
“Mr. Grey.” I nod at him. Moving with lithe athletic grace to the door, he
opens it wide.
“Just ensuring you make it through the door, Miss Steele.” He gives me a
small smile. Obviously, he’s referring to my earlier less-than-elegant
entry into his office. I flush.
“That’s very considerate, Mr. Grey,” I snap, and his smile widens. I’m glad
you find me entertaining, I glower inwardly, walking into the foyer. I’m
surprised when he follows me out. Andrea and Olivia both look up, equally
surprised.
“Did you have a coat?” Grey asks.
“Yes.” Olivia leaps up and retrieves my jacket, which Grey takes from her
before she can hand it to me. He holds it up and, feeling ridiculously
self-conscious, I shrug it on. Grey places his hands for a moment on my
shoulders. I gasp at the contact. If he notices my reaction, he gives
nothing away. His long index finger presses the button summoning the
elevator, and we stand waiting – awkwardly on my part, coolly
self-possessed on his. The doors open, and I hurry in desperate to escape.
I really need to get out of here. When I turn to look at him, he’s leaning
against the doorway beside the elevator with one hand on the wall. He
really is very, very good-looking. It’s distracting. His burning gray eyes
gaze at me.
“Anastasia,” he says as a farewell.
“Christian,” I reply. And mercifully, the doors close.
One Shadowmere was harmed in the making of this video.
Buying arrows? Why? There are too many arrows in every tombs/ruins. I don’t
even pick them up after a while anymore.
Free bound bow spell in Fort Amol, way to ivarstead.
It’s inside a bucket in the first room.
long bow is the best bow in the game
I can make the long bow the best bow in the game.
Where is the guy at
Not to 50!!!
shark497 how long did that take u to write? or did u copy amd paste?
If you’re gonna use level up hack, BREAK IT UP, 5 levels here, (break), 5
levels there (break) so you don’t burn out. same with any long task, like
homework or writing papers or studying. ;D
Much easier way. Befriend Faendal in Riverwood. Ask him to train your
Archery then just trade with him and take back the money.
I leveled archery by taking out all the horkers on Horker Island. Got to
level 20-25, then I let it level up by itself as I continued playing.
These smoking ads really make me mad as I don’t smoke and they are a
general waste of time for me.
There’s this lady up in the mountains South of Falkreath, Angi, who nets
you 6 levels of Archery when you complete her challenges. Note that it’s
best to have a Longbow and the Quick Draw perk, because her later
challenges require you to make quick shots.
Or play the game with a bow.
GREAT IDEA GENIUS LORD OF FAPPERS
this video is so boring
nice trick but boring for me because i like the game to earn my experince
while i play. otherwhise y can use a cheatprogram and make the lvl to max.
Takes out all the fun in the game.